Write about your first crush.
When I think about my first crush, my mind goes back to my ex-husband, long before he became my ex. He was my world then—charming, familiar, everything I thought I wanted in a man. I poured my heart into that love, believing it was the shape of forever. But life has a way of teaching us, doesn’t it? We grew apart, our paths diverged, and I learned that love, as beautiful as it feels, sometimes needs more than just a spark to endure. That chapter closed, but it left me wiser, with a clearer sense of who I am and what matters to me.
Now, at this point in my life, I find myself with a new crush—one that feels a little silly to admit, but it’s real and it brings me joy. It’s a celebrity crush, on Sam Heughan. I know it’s not the kind of love you build a life on, but there’s something about him that speaks to my heart. It’s not just his charm or the way he lights up a screen as Jamie Fraser in Outlander. It’s deeper than that. It’s the way he carries himself—his kindness, his authenticity, the way he seems to live with purpose and heart.
Sam feels like a reflection of the values I hold dear: sincerity, resilience, and a quiet strength that doesn’t need to shout to be felt. I admire how he’s stayed grounded despite fame, how he shares glimpses of his Scottish roots with such pride, and how he treats people with warmth and respect. There’s a humanity to him that feels rare, like he’s someone who’d sit down for a coffee or a dram of whisky and listen, really listen, to your story. That’s what draws me in—the idea of someone who values connection, who sees the world with a sense of wonder and gratitude.
Maybe it’s silly to have a crush on someone so far removed from my everyday life, but it’s also a reminder of what I aspire to: living openly, loving deeply, and staying true to who I am. Sam represents a spark of inspiration, a nudge to keep my heart open to possibility, whether that’s in love or in the way I move through the world. My first crush taught me about love’s highs and lows, but this crush? It’s teaching me to dream again, to find joy in the little moments of admiration, and to hold onto the values that make me,
Since the end of my marriage, Sam Heughan has become my first crush in a while, and it’s something that always brings me joy.
Deep Thinking 