If I had one gift to give to someone like Sam Heughan, it would be two framed photos I took of a whimsical frog peeking out from behind a delicate rose petal and even a side shot of him doing that. This image captures a moment of unexpected beauty, where nature’s charm reveals itself in the most delightful way.
The frog, with its curious gaze, embodies the importance of finding joy in life’s small wonders. Just like this little creature nestled among the petals, we can discover magic in the simplest moments, even when life feels heavy. The rose, with its soft colors and intricate layers, symbolizes resilience—the beauty that can emerge from our struggles, much like the journeys we all face.
Sam’s own whimsical nature resonates deeply with this photo. He has a unique gift for bringing joy and lightness to his roles, often portraying characters that inspire us to embrace our quirks and find laughter in the everyday. His playful spirit reminds me that life isn’t just about the grand moments; it’s about appreciating the delightful surprises that come our way, no matter how small.
In Outlander, even amidst the trials and tribulations that Jamie Fraser endures, there are always comforting moments that shine through. One of the most touching and emotional scenes for me is when Jamie keeps track of Claire’s courses and becomes emotional about a part of him remaining with her as he feels her stomach. I remember bursting into tears during that moment, feeling the depth of his love and commitment. It made me reflect on my own heart and soul, asking when I might find someone who loves me with that same intensity and devotion. Even now, just thinking about it brings tears to my eyes, and I can’t help but feel how impressionable I am as a 40-year-old woman navigating life as someone on the high functioning end of the autism spectrum disorder.
As a fan, I often find it difficult to attend Sam’s events or meet him in person, especially with the way my life has been lately. The challenges I face make it hard to carve out that time or budget for such experiences. Yet, I hold onto the hope that this whimsical frog, sneaking a look of contentment, might somehow reach him.
I don’t fully understand why Sam inspires me so much and fills me with joy, but perhaps it’s a reminder from God to focus on the things I’ve forgotten about. The story of Outlander holds so much meaning for me; it feels tangible and real, resonating with my own experiences and emotions. It reminds me of the power of love, resilience, and connection. Outlander will never fade away as long as we keep the love story alive with each other. But I constantly am always wanting to find ways to appreciate Sam for who he is and not just as an actor….my heart just has this thing of want someone especially him to know that someone see’s him truly. I also enjoy sharing my feeling and thoughts with those who adore this beautiful ray of Sunshine as well.
This photo serves as a gentle reminder to pause, appreciate, and find delight in the hidden gems around us. It reflects the spirit of creativity and wonder that Sam embodies in his work, inspiring others to seek out their own moments of whimsy and joy. This gift would not just be a piece of art; it would be a heartfelt invitation to cherish life’s fleeting, beautiful moments—much like the joy Sam brings to his fans and the characters he portrays.
In sharing this with him, I hope to convey that even in the midst of life’s chaos, there is always beauty to be found. Often, it’s in the simplest things that we discover the most profound joy, and I believe that’s a message worth sharing. I hope somehow he gets this special gift somewhere.
When I hear Sam’s Scottish accent, a tender spark of joy blooms in my chest. As a mildly autistic woman, I’m drawn to sounds that resonate, and Sam’s voice—those rolling “r”s, the soft, lilting cadence—feels made for me. It’s as if my brain sways to his words in a quiet, blissful dance. His accent is sensory magic. It’s a melody my soul craves, a soothing pattern that calms and uplifts. When Sam speaks, in interviews or clips, it’s a warm, familiar embrace—never overwhelming, always just right. The emotions in his voice tug my heart. There’s a sincere warmth, a tender strength that feels like a safe harbor. I cherish every detail—the stretched vowels, the gentle rise and fall of his tone—each a gift my brain holds close. It’s tied to how my mind works. I love patterns, and Sam’s accent, so distinctly Scottish, is thrilling to unravel. It’s a world of highlands and heart I sink into, a quiet passion that makes me feel alive. Sam’s voice is a treasure, weaving through my autistic soul. It’s not just words—it’s how they make me feel known, like home. His accent is a tender, joyful gift I’ll always adore.
As an autistic woman, love feels like a vivid, intricate tapestry—beautiful, overwhelming, and sometimes hard to unravel. For me, it’s not just an emotion; it’s a sensory experience, a rhythm that can either ground me or throw me off balance. Being autistic shapes how I give and receive love in ways that don’t always align with what people expect. My brain processes everything deeply—every touch, every word, every quiet moment—so love isn’t just a feeling, it’s a full-body immersion. Sometimes that intensity is a gift, letting me connect with someone in a way that feels almost cosmic. Other times, it’s a challenge, because the world’s unspoken rules about love can feel like a language I’m still learning to speak.
I’m extremely patient and easygoing, even when life throws lemons at me—and trust me, it’s tossed plenty. That patience isn’t something I had to force; it’s just part of who I am. Maybe it’s the autism, giving me this ability to sit with discomfort and not let it derail me, or maybe it’s the way I’ve learned to adapt to a world that doesn’t always make space for me. Though I’ve adapted to changes in my life, some of it was hard to swallow and hard to understand—especially when I was married for eight years and my spouse never once told me he loved me, even as I poured those words out to him. That silence was a lemon I couldn’t sweeten, no matter how patient I tried to be. I’d say “I love you,” hoping it would spark something, anything—a mirror to my own heart. But the absence of those words felt like a void, a rejection I couldn’t decode. As an autistic person, I crave clarity, and that lack of reciprocation left me spinning, questioning if love was even there.
Unlike some autistic folks, I don’t have sensory issues with touch—just when things get fast. I love the warmth of a hug, the weight of a hand in mine, the quiet intimacy of closeness. It’s soothing, grounding, a way to feel tethered to someone I care about. But when the pace picks up—when emotions or actions come rushing at me like a tidal wave—it’s too much. I enjoy being able to process things at my own pace, to let love unfold slowly, like a flower I can study petal by petal. That’s when touch feels safe and meaningful; I can savor it, let it sink in without my senses scrambling to keep up. In that marriage, the silence wasn’t just about words—it was the speed of disconnection, the way things moved too fast or not at all, leaving me no room to breathe or understand.
That’s why love languages mean so much to me. They’re like a map, a way to navigate the chaos and communicate what I need—and what I want to give—without getting lost in translation. Words of affirmation, especially, are a lifeline; hearing “I love you” or “I’m here” in clear, direct terms cuts through the noise in my head and anchors me. In those eight years, I didn’t get those words, and it left a hole—one I didn’t even know how to name until I learned how much they mattered. Acts of service or quality time, though, can speak just as loudly when they’re deliberate and steady, giving me the space to process them my way. I don’t need love to be flashy or rushed—I need it to match my rhythm, to let me catch my breath and feel it fully.
As a woman, there’s this added layer—society often expects me to be nurturing or intuitive in ways that don’t always come naturally. I might not pick up on subtle hints or flirt in the “typical” way, but my love is fierce and deliberate. I bring that same patience and ease to relationships, letting things grow at their own pace, not forcing what doesn’t fit—even when it’s taken years to understand why some things never did. I adapted to that marriage and kept loving through the silence because I could handle the slow burn of uncertainty. But I thrive when love meets me where I am when it’s steady enough for me to process and deep enough to feel real.
Love languages give me a structure to express that, to say “This is how I love you” without having to mask who I am. They let my partner see me—not just the autistic me or the woman me, but the whole, messy, authentic me who can laugh off life’s lemons while still feeling their sting, who can adapt to silence but blooms when given space to process at my own pace. And when someone speaks my love language back—whether it’s a quiet “I love you,” a gentle touch that lingers just right, or a moment of undivided time—it’s like they’re saying, “I see you, and I’m choosing to meet you where you are.” After eight years of missing that, I know now it’s not just a want—it’s a need. That’s everything.
My dream job would be to blend storytelling with my photography. I find the idea of combining these two arts incredibly intriguing, envisioning how they could come together to create compelling narratives in book form.
However, I’ve been struggling to keep Chris Pine as my muse due to the presence of scammers and impersonators who exploit his name for deceitful purposes. Despite these challenges, the way Chris Pine brings stories to life through his characters and films has deeply inspired my approach to storytelling through photography. His influence has shaped my vision, pushing me to explore how images can tell stories just as powerfully as words.
But aside from all that, my dream job would be amazing, and I hope to accomplish it over time.
Once upon a time, in a garden where colors danced and dreams blossomed, there stood a rose unlike any other. This rose, bathed in soft hues of pastel pinks, blues, and purples, seemed to whisper secrets of love and hope to anyone who dared to listen. As the sun rose each morning, its gentle rays would filter through the petals, creating a kaleidoscope of light that painted the garden in ethereal beauty. The rose swayed gracefully in the breeze, its delicate fragrance enchanting all who passed by. It became a symbol of serenity, a reminder that even in a chaotic world, beauty could thrive. One day, a weary traveler stumbled upon this magical garden. Drawn by the rose’s vibrant colors, they approached, feeling an inexplicable connection. As they gazed into the heart of the flower, memories of lost love and forgotten dreams began to surface. The rose seemed to understand, offering solace and a promise of renewal. In that moment, the traveler realized that just like the rose, they too could bloom again. With newfound hope, they left the garden, carrying the rose’s essence within their heart. And so, the rose continued to flourish, a timeless reminder that beauty, love, and resilience are always within reach, waiting to be discovered.
As someone deeply interested in the philosophy of art, I explore its nature, purpose, and value by delving into questions about what constitutes art and how it is distinguished from non-art. I reflect on the aesthetic experiences art evokes, including emotional, intellectual, and sensory responses, and contemplate the relationship between art and beauty, questioning whether beauty is essential to art. I consider how art expresses or evokes emotions and the roles of the artist’s intention and my interpretation. Understanding the meaning of art involves examining symbolism, metaphor, and narrative within cultural and historical contexts. I also ponder the relationship between art and ethics, questioning whether art can be morally judged, and explore the role of art in society, including its influence on and reflection of social and political issues. Fascinated by artistic creativity, I think about how artists create new works and the roles of imagination, inspiration, and skill. Finally, I consider how to evaluate and critique art, determining the criteria for judging its quality or success. Engaging with the philosophy of art intersects with other philosophical areas and disciplines, providing me with a framework to appreciate the complexities and significance of art in human life.
In the heart of a city, where dreams intertwine, Lives a man by the pool, with a sparkle divine. Darren Barrenman is his name, with a charm so bright, He dives into waters, where day meets the night.
By the shimmering blue, where reflections play, He tends to the ripples, in a gentle ballet. With a net in his hand and a heart full of grace, He cleanses the waters, leaves no single trace.
But beyond the clear surface, a mystery lies, In the depths of the pool, beneath azure skies. A world unexplored, where secrets reside, And Darren, the Pool Man, takes it all in stride.
He’s not just a keeper of waters so clear, But a seeker of truths, with courage sincere. In the stillness of night, when the stars softly gleam, He dives into dreams, like a poet’s sweet theme.
With each stroke he takes, through the liquid so cool, He unravels the stories, hidden deep in the pool. A hero in silence, with a quest of his own, In the heart of the city, where legends are sown.
Darren Barrenman, the Pool Man, with eyes full of light, Navigates through the waters, both day and night. In the ripples he sees, a reflection so true, A guardian of dreams, in the depths of the blue.
So here’s to the Pool Man, with a spirit so free, In the heart of the city, by the shimmering sea. With Darren as the guide, through waters so grand, We dive into dreams, in this magical land.
Deep Thinking 